NASA Johnson Space Center
Oral History Project
Edited Oral History Transcript
Joseph
P. Allen
Interviewed by Jennifer Ross-Nazzal
Washington, DC – 18 March 2004
Ross-Nazzal:
Today is March 18th, 2004. This oral history with Joseph P. Allen
is being conducted for the Johnson Space Center Oral History Project,
in Washington, D.C. Jennifer Ross-Nazzal is the interviewer.
Thank you again for coming to see me this morning, the second time
this week. We appreciate it. I’d like to begin by asking you
to describe your work with the ASSESS [Airborne Science/Shuttle Experiment
System Simulation] Project.
Allen: All
right. Remind me. When was that?
Ross-Nazzal:
I’ve been looking at records, and I think you were appointed
in 1974.
Allen: Right.
The NASA was looking toward flying Apollo-Soyuz [Test Project]. The
Skylab had flown successfully. Those [of us] involved in the last
Apollo missions, however, really weren’t so involved in Skylab,
and a number of us were not even involved in Apollo-Soyuz. We were
now looking farther downstream to when the Space Shuttle was going
to fly, [even though Shuttle] was still very much in the throes of
its engineering, design, development, construction, and all the myriad
of details that go with [such evolutions. Space Shuttle] was to fly
out on the horizon, [i.e.,] late 1970s, but we were a long way from
its first flights.
[In the early 1970s], a decision was made by NASA and international
parties to accommodate research persons aboard the Space Shuttle from
nations other than the United States, and part of that negotiation,
a very important part, involved the European Space Agency, [ESA. European
scientists] had become an increasing force in scientific research
in space as America pursued the Apollo Program. The Europeans were
quite keen to participate with the United States, using the now-being-developed
Space Shuttle if they could.
As their part of the bargain, [ESA] agreed to develop and build something
that went by the term of Spacelab. Not an easy project, because it
was to be manned—in other words, populated by people—so
it had to meet all those requirements, and Europe had had no experience
with humans in spaceflight at all. The Europeans asked for and were
given some help in that regard by the Americans. As part of that [effort],
I became involved in some teams of people that looked at the various
Spacelab designs from the point of view of a flight crewman. Would
[Spacelab] meet NASA standards? Would [it] meet the standards of good
laboratory space, volume? Would [it] accommodate researchers [who
would be working in the space environment]?
I made, I think, at least two trips to Europe, maybe three, as we
looked at these evolving designs. Before joining NASA, in 1959-1960,
I had been a student of physics and mathematics in northern Germany,
and quite by coincidence, one of the major [Spacelab] contractors
was in Bremen, northern Germany, which was not far from where I had
been a student many years earlier, [thus] it was great fun for me
to return, because I did have a skill in the German language and I
thoroughly enjoyed meeting the German engineers and scientists [who]
were becoming involved in this European-wide effort. I had some great
times there.
An individual by the name of Klaus Berge was a principal engineer
in that Spacelab effort, and he and I are still quite good friends
today. [Klaus] had important responsibilities for European space efforts
up to just the last few years. I think he’s just retired from
that. I made other friends at ESA, including I made the acquaintance
of a man that was the head of ESA, [Reimar Lüst]. …
NASA is very good at [inventing] simulations to try to understand
how events might unfold later on. We simulate spacewalks by going
underwater in weightless environmental test facilities. In using them,
we really build the choreography for a spacewalk and we prepare the
endurance of the astronauts that will do the spacewalk. We do many
other kinds of simulations, [as well], and it occurred to us that
maybe we ought to [simulate] doing research in a volume the size of
a Spacelab, in conditions that were not unlike living aboard the Space
Shuttle.
We set out to do this in a simulation called ASSESS, which I won’t
remember what [the acronym] stood for, but we used NASA research airplanes
that were stationed out at NASA Ames [Research Center, Moffett Field,
California], and we would confine research crew members to quarters
that were similar to the quarters aboard what would later become the
Space Shuttle, and we actually carried out real research, using airplanes
[being flown to do] research. This had nothing to do with zero gravity,
but it did have to do with confining research scientists in teams
working for a period of about a week, eating and sleeping where you’re
working. I do believe some useful information came from [these simulations].
Let me now go back to the European journeys. I had worked in Outlook
for Space with Max [Maxime A.] Faget, and it turned out Max, who was
the Chief Engineer of the Manned Spacecraft Center, later to become
the Johnson Space Center, had [finished] his major work as Chief Engineer
on the Space Shuttle. The Space Shuttle was now in construction and
testing, and he turned some of his engineering attention to the development
of the Spacelab, the engineering of the Spacelab, and he and I traveled
in Europe to this end. So, once again, we’re kind of traveling
[and] working [together, he] as the engineer and designer, and I [as
the] the operator of machines that would be operated [in space]. …
This was always fun for me. It later became important for me, because
when I left NASA in 1985, I very deliberately set about making an
important decision as to where I would go next. I was [forty-eight]
years old. I had time for one more profession, at most, and I wanted
to be careful as to what I chose to do. I realize this is a bit of
a digression, because I’ve gone around to the end. My choices
[in 1985] were really go back into the university from whence I had
come eighteen years earlier. I gave some thought to that. My feeling
was I would have to go back to the university and refurbish myself
as a physicist … for at least a year, maybe two years. Financially,
that would have been very difficult for me to do. I had a family by
then and would have had no paycheck.
I [also] could step down from flight status and stay as an official
at NASA, and I pursued that [possibility]. However, I had at one time
been an assistant administrator of the agency, and so I thought it
would be a step backward if I were to do anything less. Possibly I
[could] have [become] a Center Director. There just did not seem to
be an opportunity to do that though, [and] NASA [certainly] was not
jumping at my suggesting [this career move]. … So my stepping
off of flight status pretty much means I would leave NASA, [and leave
the world’s best job title, astronaut].
[My] third [choice] was to go into the private sector. Flown astronauts
were, in those years, still sought after; there was no question about
that, rightly or wrongly, and I was pursued by numbers of big aerospace
corporations, which I appreciated. But, I was worried because they
represented the business world and I knew nothing about the business
world. I had a hard time imagining why they would put me in a position
of some responsibility where I really didn’t understand how
business worked. I came to the conclusion that if I were to go into
the business world, I should start in a small business—if not
a mom-and-pop grocery, at least something that was akin to it and
that had a technical element, because I was, after all, a scientist
and a technical person.
Max Faget, in the beginning of 1985, had started a small space company
called Space Industries [Inc.], and when he learned that I might be
considering leaving NASA, [he] was waiting on my front door to hire
me. [Max] was [very] keen on my coming with his company. [I thus agreed
to join] Space Industries. I was about the fourth or fifth employee
there. Again, this is outside the purview, maybe of the NASA history,
but [it does involve NASA projects and former NASA workers]. We had
an office in a strip shopping mall on Bay Area Boulevard, not exactly
above a 7-11 [store], but very close to it.
One of the first meetings I attended was to determine such things
as a logo, if we could, and we had to decide on what the address of
the company would be, which seems peculiar, because we had a street
address [on] Bay Area Boulevard. But as you yourself might know, the
post office does not care if you [“place” Bay Area Blvd.
in] Houston, Texas, [or Webster, Texas], as long as you have the zip
code correct, 77058. Well, we were a space company, so all the [males],
myself, Max, and the two other men, wanted [the address] to be Space
Industries, Bay Area Boulevard, Houston, Texas.
Our colleague, the single female in the office, Beverly Braddy, told
us that the address would be Webster, Texas, and [this decision] was
not negotiable, because she was the mayor of Webster. [Laughs] Which
she was. … So Max said, “Beverly, you’re exactly
correct. [Webster] it will be.” I like to think [Max’s
accepting Beverly’s argument] set the tenor for our company
going forward, because we worked like many other companies, except
we weren’t as military and as autocratic as most companies—[a
spirit we kept to the end].
Let me come back, Jennifer, to the acquaintance that I made at the
European Space Agency. I had been in Germany as a student as a Fulbright
scholar [in the late 1950s. As a consequence], I was called by a gentleman
in Berlin [Germany] about five years ago, right at the turn of the
century, and he asked if I could come back to Germany and give a series
of fireside lectures to celebrate the fiftieth anniversary of the
Fulbright scholarships in Germany. I was surprised to get that call,
and I was also surprised to know that I had been one of the first
Fulbright scholars there. …
I would give [these lectures] in conjunction with a German who had
been a Fulbright scholar in America. The German was the gentleman
who had run ESA, [Reimar Lüst]. … I had gone into the university
in Kiel [Germany], Christian Albrechts University and studied physics.
He had come to Chicago [Illinois] and he had studied physics, and
he had continued for several more years [after getting his Ph.D].
Again, our paths had crossed [earlier] because he had been the head
of ESA. Neither of us had any idea that we had [the Fulbright scholarship
experience] in common.
[Dr. Lüst] was utterly charming and a wonderful person to be
on a lecture circuit with. He was [then] retired, but very interested
in NASA and very interested [still in space research]. I learned during
that time that he had been very competitive [to win his] scholarship
because he had a good command of English. He had gotten the good command
of English as a seventeen-year-old boy in a prisoner-of-war camp in
El Paso, Texas. [Ironically, Dr. Lüst] had been a submariner
in submarines built in Kiel, Germany, where I had been a student.
His submarine was sunk by Americans, and he had escaped, floated to
the surface of the ocean and was picked out of the ocean and taken
to a prisoner-of-war camp. Obviously, he was very lucky to be alive.
He had nothing but admiration for Americans and the way they treated
him as an enemy soldier. He had learned English and [many years later]
gotten his education in America, so [his] was really a wonderful,
wonderful story. I mean, there’s a history story to be told
right there. …
I think that’s a sufficient thing to say about ASSESS and Spacelab.
Oh, I do have a thought about Spacelab. The Spacelab was successfully
built by the Europeans. At least one, maybe two, I can’t remember,
three, were brought to the United States. It ultimately flew aboard
a Space Shuttle, but it would have been [STS-9]. … [Sadly, Spacelab]
cost hundreds of millions, probably several billions of dollars, and
I think it flew only two or three times. Very, very inefficient use
of hardware, which is certainly not to NASA’s credit. …
Then NASA itself pursued other [equipment to use within the Shuttle].
Other than Spacelabs, it pursued something called a Spacehab, which
[it] used [in lieu of] Spacelabs. European astronauts had trained
to fly aboard [Spacelab] and they made very infrequent flights aboard
it. That also was not an efficient use of very skilled persons, I
think. I’m sorry for that.
Then the NASA set off on this International Space Station and, of
course, by then, Spacelab was completely archaic and not used again.
…
Ross-Nazzal:
Can I ask you about your trips to Germany?
Allen: Sure.
Ross-Nazzal:
You mentioned, briefly, a little bit about those trips, but are there
any stories or anecdotes that stand out?
Allen: There’s
nothing that really pops into my head about those. They were hard-working
trips. You know, you’re in a foreign land. We spent some time
in Holland as well, at Nordvik, which is sort of the combination Marshall
[Space Flight Center, Huntsville, Alabama] and Johnson Space Center
of Europe. It’s kind of a god-forsaken place, but an interesting
place to be.
There is an anecdote I have. It has to do with Max Faget. We were
returning from one of these trips, and we went through an ESA Headquarters
in Paris, and I wasn’t really participating in this at all,
but Max was involved in important discussions with high-placed Europeans.
They were envisioning other things [beyond Spacelab] to go aboard
the Space Shuttle, including some launchers that they had in their
mind for scientific satellites, and the launchers were going to use
liquid hydrogen and liquid oxygen. Max felt that the Space Shuttle
[should] never carry liquid hydrogen and liquid oxygen in its payload
bay. There was something about just the very explosive nature of those
liquids that bothered him. He just didn’t see how safety could
be assured with [those propellants aboard], and he was very strong
[in] his belief [such things] would never happen.
This [statement] came back into everyone’s head as the Space
Shuttle flew. [The Space Transportation System (STS)] was getting
ready to carry a mission into polar orbit, launch from Vandenberg
[Air Force Base, California], and some initial crews had already been
assigned to that flight. One of those persons was Dale [A.] Gardner,
with whom I flew in STS 51-A. [The STS] was going to carry a military
satellite that had a kick stage that was liquid oxygen and liquid
hydrogen. [Another of my STS 51-A shipmates, David M. Walker, secretly
referred to the polar orbit mission as “Death Star One.”]
Prior to that flight, the mighty spaceship Challenger was lost, and
decisions were made after that, that the Space Shuttle would never
be launched into polar orbit, it would never be launched from Vandenberg,
it would never carry hypergolics in its payload bay. So [still again],
Max Faget was proven to be correct. Strange.
Let’s go to STS-1.
Ross-Nazzal:
Okay. You had started talking about that on Tuesday, and you shared
with us some anecdotes.
Allen: Oh,
I had indeed. Well, I had left Washington, D.C., [in the summer of
1978], and I told my friends here in Washington that it had been a
very interesting and quite enjoyable three years. I didn’t tell
them [that my NASA assignment had been] the worst headache in the
world. But I particularly told my friends and colleagues on Capitol
Hill that I found [must] get into a less dangerous and stressful line
of work, and so I was returning to the Astronaut Office. [The statement]
sounds facetious; it’s not. [Work in Washington is] very stressful
and not without its dangers. The danger[s are] high blood pressure
and heart attacks. Those are not dangers of Space Shuttle flights;
there are other dangers there, but I’m not certain they’re
any more lethal than high blood pressure and heart attacks.
So I returned to the Johnson Space Center, and immediately was named
onto the support crew of STS-1 and began to participate in the flight
techniques meeting and actually flew some simulations myself of the
Space Shuttle, so I had [a first-hand understanding] as to how it
was going to fly. [I] participated in all the simulations that lead
up to those flights, including the integrated simulations, [i.e.]
very clever inventions whereby astronauts are in simulators that look
very much like a spacecraft, flying a “real” spaceflight.
This simulator is actually transmitting data from a “spacecraft”
over to the mission control, and as far as the people in mission control
are concerned, it’s virtually impossible for them to tell whether
[the data they receive comes to them from] a real spaceship or a simulated
spaceship, other than [what] they read [in] the papers that morning.
That’s a terrific way to do simulation, and you’re exercising
the whole team, those [who] are “flying” and also those
[who] are the mission controllers.
There is a band of evil people involved in [these sophisticated simulations.
They are] the simulation supervisors. [It is] they [who] cause various
failures to pop up, and crew members have to deal with those failures
and the mission controllers have to deal with them, [that is to say]:
understand what [the failures] are and then build procedural work
around[s] such that the mission can be saved. These are missions that
can—typically they can run for four hours or six hours, but
prior to a real mission, you may indeed run a simulation for two days
or three days. I daresay before STS-1—you’ll have to remind
me how long. What was the duration of STS-1 mission?
Ross-Nazzal:
I think it was two, two and a half days.
Allen: It
was about that. I’m sure that we had run several two-and-a-half-day
integrated simulations [prior to STS-1].
Well, I’ve already described the few days prior to the flight
[of STS-1] and then [John W. Young and Robert L. “Bob”
Crippen] going to the Cape [Canaveral, Florida]. The mission itself,
it just goes by as a blur in my mind. I don’t have any particular
recollections about it, except for [our genuine] nervousness [about]
the reentry. The launch itself was bad enough, but when they actually
got to orbit and [the spaceship] seemed to be working, [we all began
to worry about reentry].
I do have one anecdote that comes to mind. We were very worried about
the spaceship losing tiles. In the mission control, the day after
it was in orbit, [we were given] an image of the Space Shuttle that
was [amazing in] resolution. [The photo showed the Orbiter and its
underside clearly] did not have any little black places, [indicating]
a missing [tile]. … Nobody that I knew of in mission control
knew where the image came from, but it was given to us and we had
some conversations about it, and [we] could relay to the crew that
we had indications that [the tile picture] was quite good. …
Many years later when I was in the business world, I became involved
with several companies. One was called the Environmental Research
Institute of Michigan. It was a company that Space Industries, later
to become Veridian [Corporation], bought, and with that [purchase]
came access to certain classified information, and I discovered where
that photograph had come from, and I met the people [who] had taken
it. It was a very high-resolution photograph taken using very special
methods. Some poignancy in that, because those methods are [still]
available and had they been used, it’s likely, to my mind, that
human eyes would have noticed a rather strange-looking gap in the
leading edge of Columbia [in the days prior to the tragic loss of
this spaceship]. What would have been done about that is another story
entirely, and history cannot know.
Ross-Nazzal:
Let me ask you a question about STS-1. You served as a support crew
member on Apollo 15 and then also for STS-1. Can you compare and contrast?
Allen: They
were very similar, very similar. However, my main role as support
crew on Apollo 15 had to do with science, very little to do with the
spacecraft [themselves]. … On STS-1, there was virtually no
science aboard. Well, the whole thing was [in itself an applied-science]
experiment, [i.e.] an engineering experiment, as to whether [STS]
would work or wouldn’t. I can’t recall one other thing
aboard that was just science, other than [the] machine itself.
[Prior to the STS-1 flight], a lot of the flight techniques meetings
would have been very similar to the Apollo 11 and Apollo 12 flight
techniques meetings. [Mainly], do we know what we’re doing?
…
STS-1 was also a fairly short mission. The Apollo missions were two
weeks long. Is that right? Yes, about two weeks long. So [STS-1] began
and it ended, and I’m trying to think, [in about] two-and-a-half-days.
I think I only had three shifts in the mission control, with the keystone
shift being that [last one, with the key question], “Can [Columbia]
come home safely?”
And, Jennifer, my recollection of that is looking at the engineering
data coming back and, by the way, we came through a blackout on STS-1,
which we don’t do now, because with the TDRS [Tracking and Data
Relay Satellite] above us, you can always track the spacecraft [without
a blackout]. … [On STS-1, when] we reacquired the radio signals
and [saw] it was a beautiful flying machine, [we were thrilled. Columbia]
was still hypersonic [and still with lots of speed and altitude to
lose before we were safely on the ground], but [this new invention,
the Orbiter], seemed to be performing absolutely perfectly, and it
[remained perfect], all the way to the ground.
Ross-Nazzal:
Can you describe what it was like in the Mission Control Center when
the flight officially ended successfully?
Allen: Yes.
I’ll tell you my recollection. [When the wheels] stopped, I
was very excited [and very relieved. As CapCom] I was supposed to
say something very laconic and dry, but I forget even what I said.
… [But, I do remember that Donald R. Puddy], who was the [Entry]
Flight Director, said, “All controllers, you have fifteen seconds
for unmitigated jubilation, and then let’s get this flight vehicle
safe,” because we had a lot of systems to turn down. So people
yelled and [cheered for fifteen seconds], and then he called, “Time’s
up.” Very typical [Don Puddy]. No nonsense. …
Other images that come into my head, the people there that went out
in the vans to meet [the Orbiter] wear very strange-looking protective
garments to keep nasty propellants that a Space Shuttle could be leaking
from harming the individuals. [These ground crew technicians] look
[more] like astronauts [than the astronauts themselves]. Then the
astronauts step out and in those days, they were wearing normal blue
flight suits. They looked like people, but the technicians around
them looked like the astronauts, which I always thought was rather
amusing.
It was an absolutely extraordinary achievement, that successful flight.
… With its complexities, it was as extraordinary as Apollo was
extraordinary. [STS-1 was complex, Apollo was] a bit more simple,
because a sledgehammer approach was taken for Apollo. [Apollo] started
with six million pounds, and we just [consumed propellant and discarded
used hardware] along the way, [all] in order to bring back the several
thousands of pounds of command module on to the surface of the ocean.
In the case of the Space Shuttle, what comes home is a flying machine,
perfectly capable of flying again. [STS is without question] an engineering
miracle.
[But there is also a sad aspect to the Shuttle’s early success.]
Parts of the requirements placed on this machine had nothing to do
with its being reusable, [but] made it, in hindsight, an economic
disaster. So, [an] engineering success; [an] economic disaster. And
I can give you a nutshell description of what those requirements were.
They were requirements that came out of a strange set of bedfellows
in the political world.
Leadership in the early 1970s decided the only way the Apollo-victorious
NASA would be given permission to build a reusable space transportation
system is that there be identified other users for the system other
than just the scientists. This nation’s leadership identified
the other users as the military. The Space Shuttle would be used to
carry military payloads. The military has its responsibilities, and
they said, “All right. If our payloads are going to go aboard
[Shuttle], we do have one requirement; that is that your Space Shuttle
be able to take the payloads to orbit, put them there, and land [back
at the launch site after making only one orbit of the Earth].”
At face value, that [single requirement] doesn’t seem all that
difficult to do, but what it meant was, the shape of the Orbiter went
from being a very simple lifting body-type shape, with very, very
small wings, to a much larger vehicle with delta-shaped wings. I don’t
know the exact numbers, Jennifer, but the wings that go to orbit and
come home again probably weigh half the weight of the vehicle, and
they’re never [fully] used; only the outermost wingtips are
used. All that vast expanse, with all that tile, and all the carbon-carbon
along the leading edge is never used.
It would be used if it were to go to space in a polar orbit and then
come home. It would be used to gain the 1,000 miles of cross-range
that one needs because the Earth moves 1,000 miles—no, 1,500
miles cross-range. It moves 1,500 miles in its rotation during the
time you’ve gone once around. So you have to have some soaring
ability. That’s what [these large wings are for]. The Space
Shuttle would have cost much less money. It would cost much less to
refurbish each time. Still it would not be an economic wonder, but
it would be economically okay, were it not for these huge wings. Of
course, that requirement, in hindsight, was never used, was never
needed, but the current Space Shuttle will forever be burdened with
[these wings].
That [cross-range] decision and [the] decision to undertake an International
Space Station that was permanently occupied, permanently manned, not
just visited from time to time, those two decisions and commitments
to them made many years ago has put NASA [now (2004)] in [a] very
strange cul de sac. [Keep in mind, I am now just] an old-timer passing
judgment on how my alma mater got into this rather strange position.
… [But I am harshly critical] as to where NASA now finds itself.
Can the agency recover? Certainly. But there are going to have to
be some heroic things done in order to jerk it out of that cul de
sac. Where are the Soviets when we need them? That’s a facetious
remark. We need a Cold War enemy worthy of—the Iraqis are not
going to get us out of this cul de sac.
Ross-Nazzal:
Let me ask you one question about STS-1 before we move on.
Allen: Yes.
Ross-Nazzal:
There were splashdown parties at the end of the Apollo Program, at
the end of each mission.
Allen: Right.
Ross-Nazzal:
Were there parties at the end of each successful Shuttle mission?
Allen: There
were.
Ross-Nazzal:
Was there one for STS-1 that you recall?
Allen: There
was. Oh, boy, was there. I don’t know that there’s anything
particular to tell about it. But, no, there were some great parties.
I actually don’t remember exactly all of those things, partly
because after STS-1 we were then working pretty hard on STS-2, and
then I was assigned to spaceflight. So I was now not thinking so much
about partying, but about getting ready. The date of STS-1 was what,
Jennifer? In the spring of ’81?
Ross-Nazzal:
I don’t have the exact date with me.
Allen: The
spring of ’81, something like that?
Ross-Nazzal:
I believe so.
Allen: Because
then I flew in the fall of ’82, so we were a year and a half
away and we were going to fly STS-2, -3, and –4. So they’re
going to come off pretty quickly in that year and a half. We had time
for some parties, but not for a lot of parties.
Ross-Nazzal:
Why don’t you tell me about the day you finally heard you were
going to be put on a flight.
Allen: I don’t
remember it. The first assignment of mission specialists we knew was
going to be [STS]-5, because the system was going to be declared operational
after the first four test flights if nothing untoward happened. We
also knew that the next in line to be assigned were mission specialists,
[i.e.], the scientists-astronauts. Those [who] had arrived earlier
had already flown aboard Skylab, Jack [Harrison H.] Schmitt being
the first to fly on the last Apollo, and then Joe [Joseph P.] Kerwin,
Ed [Edward G.] Gibson, and [Owen K. Garriot] had flown on the Skylab.
So there were just now, I think, nine of us [who] would be [considered].
I guess I never thought much about it, but I almost assumed that maybe
they went alphabetically, because they put myself and Bill [William
B.] Lenoir [aboard that first operational flight]. And I was thrilled,
absolutely thrilled.
… And after I’d been there with the crew about two weeks,
I made an observation to Mr. [George W.S.] Abbey that I knew why I
was on the flight; I was the impedance matching device between the
two Marine pilots and the MIT [Massachusetts Institute of Technology,
Cambridge, Massachusetts] engineer. Impedance matching is an engineering
term for getting very unlike electrical circuits to communicate, one
with the other. I said it somewhat in jest. He did not find [this
remark] as amusing as I thought it was, and I suspect that there were
elements of truth in this, because I was very good at getting different
groups of people to understand each other.
With no scintilla of modesty at all, I would say that’s probably
my strongest suit, is understanding the way different individuals
think about things and then enabling communication [between them,
in spite of their differences]. … I assert I was—I hope
it’s not overblown—very successful in getting scientists
to understand what flight crew members needed, and getting flight
crew members to understand what scientists needed, even though neither
group spoke the [other’s] language. All really had the same
motivations, but with a lot of work, it was clear they all should
be on exactly the same page, because you wanted the ultimate result
to be a successful mission, and successful in later Space Shuttle
flights and in the last Apollo flights meant scientifically rich in
what was achieved.
So I was the impedance matching device [between] Bill Lenoir, an extremely
smart, very well disciplined, very tightly wound individual [and]
Vance [D.] Brand and Bob [Robert F.] Overmyer [whose] backgrounds
were military [with] a military way of thinking about things, and
they had a much higher tolerance for people being not quite so intense.
And Bill did not have a high tolerance for that at all. Well, this
sounds unkind. I don’t mean it that way. But he’s so smart,
he just doesn’t tolerate others not being very smart. That’s
the way it is. But I was thrilled to be assigned to that [first operational
mission].
Jennifer, shortly after that assignment I got another assignment,
which was, prior to the mission I was put into the pool to be used
by newspeople during the STS-2 flight. NASA did that in those years.
They selected just a handful of astronauts and said, “Okay,
now you can be selected by the [TV reporters to join them on their
live telecasts].”
I had gotten to know Jules Bergman during the Apollo flights, and
Jules was a very caustic individual. He was a very hard-nosed reporter.
Of course, there were some very famous reporters then, including Walter
Cronkite, [whom] I also knew. But Jules was a much younger and much
more in-your-face type of individual. I don’t know if in my
last interview I recounted for you the first news conference I had
as the support crew member for Apollo 15. We had selected the [landing]
site at Hadley Rille. [At that time] we did not have very high-resolution
pictures of this area. Mr. Bergman asked in the press conference on
that site selection, how we could be certain that there were no fields
of boulders [at the site]. I had answered [his question by] saying
that we had high resolutions of pictures of an area nearby and there
were no boulders or serious craters there, and we had lower-resolution
pictures of the Hadley Rille region, but the material was exactly
the same, and through extrapolation, one presumed that the landing
field would be safe.
Jules Bergman just said, “That’s your answer?”
I said, “Yes, Mr. Bergman.” [Later], during the press
conference, a piece of paper was handed to me. I opened it and [read],
“Extrapolation is the fertile parent of error,” the last
line in an accident report that had been written about an aircraft
called the Comet, written in a very [serious] study done [in] Great
Britain when [the British] had lost a series of [these] airplanes
and they couldn’t understand why. They discovered the reason.
They had made an [incorrect] extrapolation [about metal fatigue] and
they had just said, “Extrapolation is the fertile parent of
error.” [Jules had written the note to me and even] cited the
date of the accident report and signed his name.
I took the piece of paper and I turned it over and wrote on it, “Nothing
ventured; nothing gained,” and I put in quotation marks. Underneath,
I said “Evel Knievel, Caesar’s Palace,” and a time
of day, just before [Knievel] jumped the fountain at Caesar’s
Palace [Las Vegas, Nevada, on a motorcycle], where he [crashed]. I
don’t know if you remember that [strange incident].
Ross-Nazzal:
No.
Allen: And
I said, “Give this to Mr. Bergman.” I later looked out,
and he could not believe I had written that down.
I was still an active-duty astronaut when Jules Bergman died, and
he died in a rather strange accident. He had been given to some brain
seizures, so I won’t go into it. I was quite overwhelmed to
be called by his grown children, David and his daughter—I think
maybe her name was Lynn. They asked if I would come up and speak at
his memorial service, with several people. I was just flabbergasted
to be asked that, because there were many astronauts. I agreed to
do it and I went to New York City [New York]. They held [the service]
in a temple in New York City.
The three persons who spoke at his funeral were his brother, who was
a very high, important person in the television industry, Ted Koppel
[(famous newscaster), Jules’] colleague at ABC, and myself.
I was very flattered [but also quite surprised to be asked to give
his eulogy], but [Jules’ family] said that he had such a fondness
for space flyers, and that I was amongst his very favorite. They had
found on his desk that piece of paper [reading “Nothing ventured,
nothing gained”]. He had it in a small frame so you could see
both sides of it—when they were going through his things the
day after he died. It’s pretty amazing, [but to get back to
my story].
I was put into this pool, and the one person I didn’t want to
get selected by was Jules, because he just was such a pain in the
rear end. You know how it came out. I then had to be on television
with Jules Bergman at the launch in Florida [Kennedy Space Center]
and then later at the landing out in California [Edwards Air Force
Base], and it wasn’t my cup of tea. But in spite of myself,
I became very fond of the man, very fond of him, and made a number
of friends in the television industry that are still quite good friends
today. One of those, by the way, [is] Lynn Sherr, and I don’t
know if you even have a recollection of her. She’s still on
20/20 or something, but she’s not on TV too much.
When we lost the Columbia, I had so many people calling me that were
television people, [all of them wanting on-air interviews], most of
whom I did not know. … One call came from Lynn. She said, “Joe,
this is Lynn Sherr. I’m calling just to say how terribly sorry
I am. I’m doing the story, but I’m not going to ask you
to be any part of it. I know you don’t want to be.” I
thought that was as nice a phone call as I’ve ever gotten from
a newsperson, because that’s not the business that they’re
in. Very classy lady. Actually, she was on television with Jules Bergman
when STS-3 landed in the dust storm out in White Sands [Missile Range,
Northrup Strip, New Mexico]. There’s some very funny footage
of the two of them wearing sand goggles out there, trying to do their
commentary.
STS-4 flew, and now we’re on STS-5. I don’t really know
how to go into that. It was a year of training. It was, of course,
a lot of fun. It was the first Space Shuttle [mission to carry] a
payload, [i.e.,] two communications satellites. We worked with the
satellite developers and we got to know how the satellites were put
together. We understood thoroughly what they needed for successful
deployment.
The concept of the satellite in itself is simple. They are meant to
be deployed spinning, and the way you do it is just put [the satellite]
on a table that will spin, like you put a record onto a record player.
You put it down, and then you cause it to spin. In the case of a record,
you then put the needle on it—this dates me. We don’t
have records anymore. Never mind.
In the case of the communications satellite, it’s mounted on
the table [prior to launch, then] you go to orbit. … [Once there],
you cause the table to spin and you point the Shuttle in exactly the
right direction, and then at precisely the right part of the orbit,
you just release hold-down arms that are holding the satellite to
the table top. When you release the arms, springs [on which the satellite
sits] expand and just give it a very gentle push out, spinning very
beautifully. That was the first priority of the mission, to deploy
successfully the first hardware [put into] orbit by the Space Shuttle.
The second objective [of STS-5] was to verify that the spacesuits
designed for the Space Shuttle operated properly. Bill Lenoir and
I were to do [this initial] spacewalk. … [Although we] had other
bits and pieces of experiments to do, [on] the day before the spacewalk
was to take place, we commented to ourselves that we really had just
two important things [left] to do. One was the spacewalk and then
the second was the reentry and a safe landing. I made the observation,
“Vance, out of these two, if we have to make a choice, let’s
choose the safe landing.” And we all laughed about that.
It turned out we did have to make a choice. … [Just as] the
spacewalk was to begin my spacesuit failed. It was an electrical failure
in the spacesuit. When one is in a spacesuit, Jennifer, and you power
it up [you hear a very high-pitched hum] there someplace in your ear,
just a high-frequency hum. When I powered mine on, the hum started,
but it didn’t sound like it was healthy. It sounded indeed more
like an [angry] mosquito. It just went [demonstrates]. Changed its
pitch. I’d never heard it before. Then [I] proceeded to [make]
various electrical checks [of the suit systems, and none passed the
check].
So we tried all sorts of things, powering it on and off, and it was
just not going to work, a very bitter disappointment to me, without
any question. It was equally bitter to Bill, and the question now
was, could he even do just a little part of a spacewalk—[a short
solo, if you will.] … [But Mission Control said, “No buddy
system, no spacewalk.” Bill] was really upset, obviously. Nothing
to be done.
The flight report we later wrote, at least the first draft, had said,
“Our assignment was to meet this test objective, to demonstrate
that the spacesuits worked properly,” and I put in, “they
failed the test.” I think I elaborated on it later. But, of
course, we came home and the difficulty was determined and it had
a serious electrical problem, [but easily repaired for future walks].
So the bad news was the spacesuit failed; the good news was we were
not outside the ship when it failed. It would have been considerably
more traumatic had it failed outside. It would not have been [fatal
to me], but it would have gotten [my] attention, for sure, including,
[I] would have to scramble to get back in, button [my]self up and
get out of [the suit] before other parts of it started to fail.
Let’s see. Various things that happened. … I was to be
the ship’s photographer, and I had always had an interest in
photography. I mentioned that earlier with regard to the IMAX cameras.
I knew a lot about cameras. Not that I was an expert photographer;
I just knew a lot about them. We were given, to my total delight,
flight cameras to use on the ground, so you could take rolls of film
and then the NASA photo labs [laboratories] would develop [the film
and] or give you little proof [prints through which] you could hone
your [photo] skills, which I wanted to do. … [The idea was,
with practice], people can learn to take better pictures. And quite
frankly, the pictures that had come back in the first few flights,
[where] photography was not the objective, were average [at best].
And the TV that had come back, using kind of not very good television
recorders, was pretty bad.
In the course of the training, I got a videotape, a training tape,
made [at] ABC Television, by Lynn Sherr and Jules Bergman, and Lynn’s
voice is on [the tape] explaining what’s good and what’s
bad [in TV coverage]. She would give examples of good TV shots and
then she’d give examples of really bad, and the really bad,
most of them came from STS-3 and STS-4. … I was viewing this
[tape] in a TV monitor when I looked around and Ken [Thomas K.] Mattingly
was standing behind me. Ken had flown STS-4. I felt really bad, but
he said, “You know, she’s exactly correct. That is terrible.”
[Laughs] He says, “We can learn from this,” and we did.
So I took very seriously [the assignment of] coming back [from orbit]
with nice images from the journey.
I asked to keep my training camera with me until the very last minute,
and they asked me—these are people in Houston—“When
is the very last minute going to be?”
I said, “When I strap into the spaceship.”
“You’ve got to be kidding.”
I said, “No, I’ll give [the training camera] to the suit
techs [at the launch pad] and they can bring it back.”
I took photos going from the crew quarters and going out in the van
and then going up in the gantry, up the elevators, and then loading
aboard. … And, Jennifer, when we got back, I was thrilled. A
couple of those photos were in Time magazine. The NASA labs had developed
[the film] and said, “These are great photos,” and they
had put them out [to the news media]. …
I also had use of a Hasselblad camera one very beautiful spring day,
the 19th of May, 1980. I remember this because it was my daughter’s
birthday. She was [eight] years old. Her mother gave her a wonderful
English tea party, where the girls would come [in party dresses] and
then they would make very large hats to wear. … [Then], they
would have a big tea [party wearing the hats]. … I had the use
of a Hasselblad camera, so I took all kinds of photographs at this
tea party.
The next day, I took [the exposed film] to the NASA labs and they
gave me little proof sheets, and I really had some quite beautiful
photos of a birthday party, with [eight]-year-old girls having just
the best time of their lives. We’d also hired a small limo [limousine]
to pick [the guests] up and bring them to the party and then later,
drop them home, with appropriate [party favors and] mementos, including
the hat. …
The photos were terrific and I told NASA, “Well, now make some
prints.”
And was told, “Oh, well, see, these are just training. Our labs
cannot make big prints, just proof prints.”
I said, “Oh. Well, can I have the film?”
“Sure. Here’s the film.”
I took the film to a commercial laboratory and was horrified when
I was told that, first of all, these were negatives [from the negative].
You have to make a positive, and then from the positive you can make
a print. The positive of each would be six dollars; the prints would
be eleven. … [I was trapped!] I had to have [these photos but
they] cost me hundreds of dollars, because I didn’t think [in
advance]. [Laughs] So that was a training lesson I should have been
smarter about. But I still remember it. Gorgeous photos, [though,
albeit very expensive].
The NASA trains people on all sorts of things by giving them workbooks.
With the cameras, they give you a workbook with the camera. With the
Nikon I was given, which was a flight Nikon, I couldn’t understand
how to do the delayed shutter release. You press the button, ten seconds
goes by, [and the shutter releases—a useful feature] for taking
pictures of you and your friends, when you all want to be in the picture.
[This is] probably more than you or history wants to know [about cameras].
… I read all through the workbook, the whole thing, which was
as boring as sawdust. I couldn’t find [the description of this
feature].
I went down to a photo store and I asked to see an owner’s manual
for that same model, and I was given an owner’s manual. I looked
through it, and it showed me exactly where on the camera body [delayed
shutter release] was. I had the camera with me. I looked at it, and
there on the camera body was a blank, a plug. There wasn’t a
button there.
I went back to the photo people and I said, “This is a defective
camera. It’s been plugged. I want a real Nikon.” Well,
it had been modified, and the modification had cost tens of thousands
of dollars in order to make it more astronaut-proof; such that astronauts
[didn’t], by mistake, put [the camera] on delayed timing and
thus mess up a picture.
I wanted to know then what other modifications. A couple of modifications
had been done, none of which was necessary, all of which [were] costly,
and I just was very upset with my colleagues. I said, “Cameras
are amongst the best tested of complicated tools that we have humans
have. They’ve been tested in wars. They’ve been tested
in violent storms. They’ve been tested at the bottoms of the
oceans. They’ve been tested everywhere. Why are you making them
better?” Well, it was an argument I did not win.
The STS-5 was to be the first time four Americans were together in
space. We’d had up to [three] before [—in Apollo and in
Skylab—] but that was the max [maximum]. I wanted a photograph
of four Americans. Jennifer, this also was a time that was following
still on the heels of this very sad circumstance that involved taking
of personal items to the Moon and then later selling the items. There
was a hearing in Congress that had to involve the Apollo 15 crew,
to my bitter disappointment, and was resolved in some way. But part
of the resolution was [a set of] very strict rules about what individuals
could have or not have of a personal nature [aboard the spaceship,
rules] probably followed to this day. And I won’t say that they’re
bad rules, they just are what they are. Sad, nonetheless. …
Perhaps in spite of [the rules] and because I’ve been a little
bit of a troublemaker, but not serious trouble, I went to a camera
store and was able to find a very old-fashioned shutter release mechanism.
It’s a long stem [made using a spring like the shutter release
on] an old-fashioned camera, where you go like this [demonstrates].
… So it’s just a little mechanical toy that you can thread
into the top of the shutter release, and the Nikon camera had still
the place you could thread it in.
I took [this device] aboard the spaceship without anybody really knowing
it, and it came [secretly] off the spaceship [on my person]. This
was [against NASA regulations], and I will readily admit to it. But
in the flight photos that came back, there were numbers of photos
of us, the four-crew men. [In one, we array ourselves] like the four
faces on a face card, with one head going like this, one like this,
one like this, and one like this [gestures]. It’s a fun photo,
[good enough to appear in Time magazine the next week]. But this was
with a camera that had no delayed shutter release! Not one [NASA]
person said a word to me about it, but you knew that the people in
the photo shops wondered how in the world those photographs were taken.
A very nice man ran NASA Photo for many years—I know his name;
I’m not going to give it, because I don’t want to incriminate
him. When he retired, I gave him [that secret shutter release] device—a
flown object. I’m not certain he’s still living, but if
he is, I can guarantee it’s one of his favorite things. Because
I knew he knew how I’d [made that photo]. He just had to know
how I’d done it.
In that flight there was also photography taken [using only] available-light.
Gorgeous photographs of astronauts in [natural] light, which really
pleased me. Again, NASA Photo [had] said, “Well, no, Hasselblads
are for taking pictures out the window.” And I’d used
several frames to take photos of people inside, and they were quite
good photos.
… I flew to space on the middeck. I would assert I’m probably
the first “passenger” to go to space. I had no duties
at all on the outbound journey nor on the inbound journey.
On the inbound journey, it was clear to me that we were not flying
for very long, we shouldn’t be too deconditioned. If I were
not to strap into the middeck, I wouldn’t be a threat to my
fellow shipmates, because if I fell to the floor, or for that matter,
even passed out, I wouldn’t endanger them in any way. So I decided,
and my fellow crew members said it would be fine, I just would come
home standing up in the aft part of the flight deck. I had my cameras
there, and I took some wonderful shots through the window and several
of those were in the book, Entering Space. There’s a wonderful
one of Bob Overmyer’s face being silhouetted by the orange glow
outside of reentry, and there’s another one of Vance Brand.
Then there are several photos taken out through the top, the ceiling
windows of the plasma coming back together behind the Orbiter, and
the engineers were very interested in that. They’d never seen
it before. [All of these were “first time” photos.]
I did one other thing that I’m just very pleased about. The
first time we did an OMS [Orbital Maneuvering System] burn—it’s
to change your orbit ever so slightly, after we were safely in space
and the payload bay doors were open—you do the countdown and
[fire the engine]. Since the burn was being done by Vance and Bob
Overmyer, Bill and I had only to just look out the back and see at
T-minus-zero the OMS engines ignite, and to my astonishment, it looked
like the back of the Orbiter blew off. It just went [demonstrates],
this enormous flash of light—[totally unexpected]. You hear
kind of a “whump” of the engine starting, [and see] a
flash of light. It just is there and then it’s gone, even though
the engine continues to burn.
I later learned there’s a reason for that. The engines are started
rich, more fuel than oxidizer, in order to make sure a clean burn
starts, and then [the mixture is] made lean again, such that everything
gets burned and there’s no light at all. You would think there
would be light from a rocket; there’s none, at least looking
out the back.
Every OMS burn from that time—I mean, we did maybe four or five
during that mission—with every one, I would have a camera and
at T-equals-zero I would take a photograph. To my astonishment, one
of those photographs has the flash on it. [The] “OMS burn”
[photo is] in the Entering Space book, [and] in several NASA publications.
[It turns out] the flash lasts for only a fifth of a second, [a fact]
we can tell that from video, TV cameras, camcorders. About a fifth
of a second. The exposure of a camera is a sixtieth of a second, so
you have to put a sixtieth of a second right during that fifth of
a second, which is virtually impossible to do. But I got very lucky
and was quite pleased by that result.
Ross-Nazzal:
Can we take a break for just a second? I need to change the tape.
Allen: Yes.
[Tape change]
Ross-Nazzal:
You were talking about the photos on STS-5. I’m curious, do
you have a favorite photo that you took on that mission?
Allen: I don’t
think so. I mean, there’s several that I like very much, possibly
of just various individuals. I don’t know. Well, of course,
the photos of the Earth are beautiful, but everybody’s gotten
gorgeous photos of the Earth, depending upon where you are. STS-5
was in [a low inclination] orbit, so we weren’t over the really
spectacular parts of planet Earth, so I can’t claim any one
photo that is remarkable of the Earth per se. So again, it’s
mostly just of things around the spaceship.
I very much like the ones of the glow during the reentry. There are
a couple of amusing ones taken by my shipmates of me with orange juice,
but I mean, those amuse me. They’ve been used in various science
classes, by the way. I have several that I use in science classes
to talk to young people about the zero gravity, and it’s a good
illustration for that. …
I do have a photo from the STS 51-A that is the only photo that I’ve
taken but I’m also in, and it did not use a delayed timer. By
then we had the delayed timers back on the cameras. … I [took]
a photograph of Dale Gardner during the spacewalk, and I’m reflected
in his helmet, taking the photo. That’s pretty neat.
Let’s see. Other things about STS-5 per se. Oh, there’s
so many things to remember, Jennifer. One is, we flew aboard Columbia.
It was fresh off its flight from STS-4. It still was equipped with
ejection seats, and I remember very well the flight techniques meeting
where the subject of ejection seats came up, and the four crew members
were in this meeting, and Vance Brand had already stated going in
that the ejection seats would be pinned. Both Bill and I had said,
“Vance, it does not disturb us. If it’s down to nobody
gets out, or two get out—,” [but] he was adamant about
it; they were going to be pinned. He said, “That’s not
a choice,” and he stated it categorically in a flight techniques
meeting, and NASA officials did not argue with him.
Do you know what I mean by pinning them? Such that they cannot be
used as ejection seats, regardless, that even though they are indeed
ejection seats, with explosives, etc., etc., he could not have effected
an ejection for Overmyer and Brand.
He later said to me, “Joe, this is not a selfless decision on
[my] part.” “Indeed,” he said, “it’s
selfish, because I could not live the rest of my life knowing that
[I survived and you didn’t]. I couldn’t do it. I don’t
think Bob could either.” He said, “I have some historical
evidence as to that’s being a true statement. I don’t
just surmise it.” He had been a test pilot in England for a
while, and some of the English bomber airplanes enabled the pilots
to get out, but not the gunners. So there was a small body of data
that involved psychological studies done on individuals [who] had
escaped, but by escaping, had left their shipmates to a certain death.
They had been definitely tormented, in terms of what the data showed,
for the rest of their lives. So it was not a good solution. Vance
was aware of that [data], and he didn’t want to be another bit
of statistic in that [database—a decision I thought was gracious].
He said it was selfish; I didn’t think it was selfish at all.
But that was just maybe a difference of terminology there.
All four crew members were, of course, part of the press conferences
prior thereto, and the news was still very interested in this. First
operational flight, first time four people would be there. “Commander
and pilot, we know what you’re going to do. Lenoir, what are
you going to be doing?”
“Oh, I’m the flight engineer,” and he would describe
it.
“Joe Allen, what will you be?”
And I said, “Well, I’ll be actually, in a sense, a passenger.
I’ll be in the middeck, but I’ve requested of my shipmates
that they not send any radio transmissions or ask any questions on
the intercom that end in the word that, like, ‘What was that?’”
[Laughs] “They will be very specific in what they say.”
And they said, “Well, what are your duties going to be?”
And I said, “Actually, I think I’m just in charge of religious
activities,” which was a little bit flippant on my part. If
I had it to do again, I wouldn’t have said that. NASA public
officials were a little distressed I had said it. But it turned out
that there were several letters that NASA received from followers
of Madeline Murray O’Hare stating that the government should
not speak [on] religious [matters]. You know, completely mistook what
I’d said, and actually thought I was going to be in charge of
religious activities. I thought, “Oh, Joe, you’re stupid
for having done that,” but it was too late.
Let’s see. As crews did just prior thereto and have done since,
we went to the Cape several days before the launch, hung out in the
crew quarters, as crews always do, and then loaded aboard the crew
vehicle to go out to the launch pad.
In the couple of days prior thereto, there had been some security
threat. I have no idea what it was, but we were told there’d
been some security threat and, as a result, there were members of
SWAT [Special Weapons and Tactics] teams that were there. …
We didn’t think much about it. But, to my surprise, when we
came down and got into the van [to take us] from the crew quarters
[to the launch pad], sitting in the van was a man dressed all in a
black uniform, with a helmet, carrying an automatic machine gun. You
know, [he] just said, “Hello. Don’t mind me.” …
George Abbey loaded with us in those years and John [Young]—did
John come with us? I can’t remember. But George was there, and
I think maybe John was there as well. He was the head of the Astronaut
Office by then. I turned to George and I said, “George, your
employee tactics are rather heavy-handed. We are going to go through
this launch. Don’t you worry about it.” [Laughs] He was
somewhat taken aback that I was accusing him of having posted the
guard to make sure we go through this launch. Even George thought
it was pretty funny.
Let’s see. The launch day—and you will have to help me,
dear friend. I think it may have been the 11th of November. Was it?
Ross-Nazzal:
Yes.
Allen: We
were to launch on or around seven in the morning. Do you have that?
Ross-Nazzal:
I don’t have that, actually.
Allen: I think,
Jennifer, I’m correct in stating that we were the first Space
Shuttle launch that went right on time. We didn’t have one hiccup,
not one delay, no nothing, and we went—bang—on time.
We were told the night before that a Russian spaceship had actually
changed the timing of its orbit somewhat and would come right over
the Cape at exactly that time. [Because we did] launch on time, I
suspect there are some photographs that could be found in the archives
of the Soviets, of us coming off the ground. I have no idea, but clearly
they intended to at least watch us do it with their own eyes, which
was pretty interesting. What they, the Russians, did not know, nor
we, on that [very same] day, the Premier of Russia died, and I think
it was [Leonid] Brezhnev.
Ross-Nazzal:
I think you’re right.
Allen: And
when we got back, the front pages [of] all the newspapers are [about
his death, not about our space launch]. Not that I much cared. There
was maybe a little blurb, a little photo of us in the lower corner
of some newspapers, but we were pretty much second-page news, with
the exception of my hometown [paper, the Journal Review of] Crawfordsville,
Indiana, [where] I was [on] the front page [story].
This happened in 1982. When I was selected in August of 1967, this
same hometown newspaper had carried on the front page the next day
an account of the calf-judging contest at the county fair, and only
on the back page was a small article about a local native, a young
man from Crawfordsville, selected to be an NASA astronaut. My mother
knew the newspaper editor very well, and she called him, quite upset.
She said to him, “Harold, you know my son Joe was selected as
an astronaut. I think that’s very important news, and there’s
practically nothing.”
And he said to her, “Harriet, you know perfectly well we’re
a small town, we’re a very small newspaper. If you want a story
about your son Joe in the paper, you’re going to have to write
it yourself.” [Laughs] … But even our town had progressed
some, because they wrote the stories [about me] some years later and
my mother didn’t have to write [them] herself.
My overall recollection of the flight is it was so extraordinary,
and so short and I was in kind of a mental saturation for the whole
thing, that I could hardly believe the beauty of it and the grandeur
of it. … In the course of these oral histories, Jennifer, I
suspect there’s a division, which may come out in your talking
to a variety of people. There is a group of us, dwindling, [who] were
adults before Sputnik flew, and we were in our late twenties, early
thirties before John [H.] Glenn [Jr.] flew. [To those of us of that
era], spaceflight is not a common thing and not ordinary. [Rather],
it is awesome and awe-inspiring, and I’m very much in that group
[of older space flyers].
Now, there is a much larger number of space flyers [who] grew up wanting
to be astronauts and that now are astronauts, and I’m certain
that they are awed by it, but I would guess they’re not quite
so overwhelmed by it or deem it as just totally surrealistic and [such
an] out of the world experience. I still think it’s surrealistic
and an out of the world experience, and will go to the end of my days
thinking that. I was so astonished by it that I felt, in the weeks
following the flight, that I really didn’t have my best senses
about me such that I could have savored it and understood it, and
for that reason, [I] was very keen on going again. I will say that
when I did go again, I [indeed was] much more observant and in a position
to appreciate [the space experience] a lot more than the first time.
So I’m very thankful that I did [fly a second time].
Now, that might be a good place for us to stop.
Ross-Nazzal:
I think this is a good stopping place.
Allen: We
have another flight to go.
[End
of interview]